I really do not know what you want. Not that you are communicating across also.
I really am tired by your seemly indifference and no actions. Not to mention the badly stabbed decayed wounds you did.

No matter how you actually think you feel inside,think inside...You are just signing the message of you are now happy in a world of your own,doing things at your pace etc, to me.
You can then try to tell me that things aren't the way I see but I've got only one question to that.

Why am I seeing and still feeling it this way?
If I am not being assured of, why do you bother to explain that things aren't the way I perceived.

You are letting me really tired and I still don't know if by running me this way makes you feel justified and happy.
Even if you are not, the message you are giving is telling me so. Cos' despite that you can tell me I am not over in your life, you are only bother to explain so when I pushed you to an edge.

I don't even know why I have to do that to hear the things I wanna hear.

The worse of dealing with all these is that I have to keep my emotions under control so I would tear myself apart.

I don't wanna cry anymore.
I don't wanna push you anymore.
I don't wanna keep waiting for things that you never wanna give.

Single life? You think that if I want to open out my heart, I would have no one charging for me?
I am just holding back cos' I wanted to wait for you, wait for us.
I am just holding back cos' I don't want that poor guy to receive a broken heart.
I am just holding back cos' I don't want to hurt that poor guy if I know I am waiting here.

Looks like...you don't want me to wait either.

June 21st?
The message you are putting to me is..."let's forfeit this deal."

And now...I don't even wanna push you for your answer anymore.
You make me so tired now...